I want to have a series about unpacking whatever that is on this head of mine, should be stress relieving; at least for me.
Now that is out of the way I'd like to talk about my lack of sentimentality, something that always occur to me is that how easy I get to move on. I could not find myself sticking to one place, what happens is something I think about, reflect on the pros and cons of the matter then leave it at that to start anew. I never find myself looking for a friend, more of a companion something to get by with; I simply just don't see myself in a long term relationship of any kind, if I were to find the root of it all it may have been because of my childhood experience of being alone and bullied by kids, that likely did something to me and I've never since really find myself enjoying company of people.
I don't really understand love at all, whether it's family or non-family, I cannot bring myself to hug or kiss someone. It's all shallow to me; it's hard to be such person, and the best I can cope is pondering on stories and ideas. Drawing and writing them, it matters not to me much about quality but getting to know many heroes and villains from all over history till today may be the only remedy.