Reflecting on my leaving of Catholicism

Ever since I was 13 years old, I've began to doubt the whole ordeal of God, and whether or not he exist; I've also wrestled with the nature of the Catholic church and how it functions as an institution.

By the age of 14 I've began to throw the whole notion of it and became a closet Atheist for sanity sake because raising the sword of rebellion within the heart of your family is a trouble I am not going to deal while I still live in their shadow.

To this day every time I attend church I find myself bored and just fill my head of with thoughts of what to do on that day. I hate the priest and how arrogant a lot of them are in thinking they got a good answer in life. The only thing the institution of Roman Catholicism got to gripe the people is fear of torment in an after life promised by an ancient tome that was collected from many forms of scriptures: collected, revised to fit a narrative those who came after the original. The whole thing is shaped by many traditions and cultures.

It's a culture and tradition I find wholly lacking in merit, and one that the world would be better without. Stepping out of Christianity was the best choice I have done, and learning so much of the world without it, looking at life without any preconceive dogma that Catholicism taught me. I learn to appreciate life and how precious every second is, to find my passion and pursue goals that will lead me to a fulfilling life.